Monday, January 12, 2009

To my husband...

This blog is for my husband, who lets me put headbands in his hair and then take pictures of it. I have spent the last couple of weeks contemplating what I should blog about. Should I reflect on 2008 and all that we learned? Should I make a New Year's Resolution that, in my heart, I know I will not ultimately keep? Should I share with the blogging world how fat I feel and how angry I am that I have to think about it? Maybe I should write about the hell of finishing the first semester at school when it feels as if so many students' graduations are riding on my shoulders. I have even contemplated sharing about the excitement we experienced for the first three weeks we found out we were pregnant, and the grieving that followed when we learned the pregnancy was simply not to be. The thing is, the more I thought and the more I reflected, the more that what I needed to say became clear...this man, the one  I call my husband, NEVER ceases to amaze me. When I call myself fat, he tells me to be nice to his wife. When I cry because I can't ever seem to catch up at school or because I just feel like I can't change anything, he actually listens. When I go on my cleaning rampages, he starts vacuuming. When all I want is a Dairy Queen Blizzard, he grabs the keys and off we go. When I ask him if fixing up my mom's kitchen is feasible, he says yes, even though we both know he's starting a new job in only a matter of days. When the doctors tell me that it's now time to let nature take it's course, he sits with me on the couch for hours, never once complaining that "The Real Housewives of Orange County" is my drug of choice. And when I ask him to let me put a headband in his hair, he offers me his head. As we get ready to celebrate the second anniversary of our first date, there is so much to be thankful for, but first and foremost, I am thankful for HIM - for his unwavering love and support, and for making me BETTER. I love you, Trevor Alan Smith, bigger, bigger than all the mountains.

3 comments:

babybuddhalover said...

I'm pretty sure this blog just reminded me- a skeptical single girl the real love still exists. you guys are a beautiful- a real cohesive unit- meant to be....
Thanks for sharing your intimate thoughts Sara.

Dianna said...

This is a beautiful blog and a VERY scary picture.

Mimi said...

This was beautiful. Tony and I are thankful for him to and thankful for the happiness you two have found with each other.